I took a couple of pictures of the colors of fall this week and as promised I am putting them here. I have some turmoil going on in my life this week and the pictures are a peaceful contrast to the upset in my soul.
My youngest daughter is a senior in high school and she struggles with reading and comprehension, she has to work harder than everyone else for even a C. She is extremely organized and ALWAYS does her homework and is big into class participation. She almost never passes a test but manages to get through the class and pass it in the end.
She is in counseling because she may have issues with depression and she has some grief issues surrounding the death of her dad 4 years ago. The counselor suggested that we request testing at the school for a learning disability. So that is in the works. Although, trying to find her help has not been easy. The school is in no big hurry to help, she is passing and she is graduating. They don’t care that she isn’t going to be successful in college unless her reading skills are much improved.
It’s not easy to find private agencies that do the testing and when you do - you find out just how expensive this stuff gets. When I mentioned to my husband that I found a place that would test her and then give us some feed back on learning styles and such for $2,200 he pretty much freaked out. I don’t want to spend $2,200 either but I want to do the right thing and get her the assistance she needs to move forward.
I know that she is not going to die because she has a learning disability and that many people out there with LD are functioning nicely. I needed my husband to help me by bouncing ideas around and talking about what other options we might have. He just got angry and started questioning me like I had done something wrong. He was angry with the teachers for not picking up on this sooner and at the counselor for making the suggestion to have her tested. Most of all he was angry about the $2,200. So we are arguing.
Last night at my daughters Volleyball game they played 5 matches (they have to win 3). My daughter loves Volleyball and she really has a good relationship with the girls on the team. I sent a note via e-mail to her coach thanking her for taking the time to be the coach and told her how much I thought Alexis was growing both personally and academically. Her response was as follows: “Thank you for your kind words. I’m so glad that volleyball has been a positive in her life. Allie has been nothing but an inspiration to our team. She is probably the most team-oriented person on our team and really pulls the troops together. She’s always cheering everyone on. I (and the team) feel very fortunate to have her on our team…she’s been great!! “
There are 12 girls on the team. They don’t always get to play, I understand that. I have gone to many of the games and I watch the same six girls on the court for most of the game, and I understand that too. The coach wants to win. My daughter may not be the best player on the team but she isn’t the worst either. She doesn’t get to play all that often. Last night the team played all 5 matches and they were all close games. My daughter was the only one on the team that did not get in to play at all. As soon as the game was over she was the first one off the bench to clean up and put away the net and other equipment she never stopped cheering her teammates on and was a very good sport. The coach approached her after the game while she was taking down the net and tried to talk to her. I saw that Allie wasn’t in the mood for talking as she just kept working, the coach put her hand on Allie’s shoulder and Allie shrugged her off. Then she sort of slowly backer her into a corner and talked to her. Allie didn’t have much to say but I could tell that she was talking a little bit. After their talk Allie walked over and picked up her bag and left the gym. I followed. As soon as she was out of the gym and in the parking lot she began to cry. The coach had apologized for not putting her in the game, she said she was going to put her in the fourth match but she didn’t want to mess up the “Mesh” of the other girls. Many of the other girls had missed practice and were out of school sick the day before the game and it was always an unwritten rule that if you miss practice you can’t play. They all played. I was crushed for her. I actually felt her pain.
I asked her last night if she would be going to practice today and she said “yes, I am going to every practice and every game. I will be there for my team and my friends, but I have no respect for coach.” I will tell you that I might not have gone back if it were me and I am soooo proud of her for going back and not quitting. But my heart still aches.
Things are still not good with hubby and I am trying to make things better. I decided to go back on my anti depressants and anti anxiety meds. Maybe that will help.
The last time I heard from my son he had the possibility of a job offer at the animal hospital but I haven’t heard from him since so I’m not sure where that stands.
My oldest daughter and her family are coming for the weekend, we have lots planned. I hope that my husband and I can be over this tiff before they arrive and we can have a good weekend.
On Sunday all of my family will get together at my parents house for dinner. My parents leave for Florida next week and they will be gone until April. So it’s sort of our family Thanksgiving.
We also have a celebration to attend earlier in the afternoon on Sunday at friends. Their two children (adopted) are going to be baptized; my daughter and son in law are God Parents. This is along awaited event. One of the children is a 16 month old little boy whose parent was fighting for custody. She was found to be unfit and her rights were terminated. The baby has been with his adoptive parents for all of the 16 months and it would have been devastating for all of them if he had been taken away.
I hope my medication starts to work quickly. I am feeling so yucky and always on the verge of tears. I guess I wasn’t ready to stop taking them. Maybe I never will be.
My youngest daughter is a senior in high school and she struggles with reading and comprehension, she has to work harder than everyone else for even a C. She is extremely organized and ALWAYS does her homework and is big into class participation. She almost never passes a test but manages to get through the class and pass it in the end.
She is in counseling because she may have issues with depression and she has some grief issues surrounding the death of her dad 4 years ago. The counselor suggested that we request testing at the school for a learning disability. So that is in the works. Although, trying to find her help has not been easy. The school is in no big hurry to help, she is passing and she is graduating. They don’t care that she isn’t going to be successful in college unless her reading skills are much improved.
It’s not easy to find private agencies that do the testing and when you do - you find out just how expensive this stuff gets. When I mentioned to my husband that I found a place that would test her and then give us some feed back on learning styles and such for $2,200 he pretty much freaked out. I don’t want to spend $2,200 either but I want to do the right thing and get her the assistance she needs to move forward.
I know that she is not going to die because she has a learning disability and that many people out there with LD are functioning nicely. I needed my husband to help me by bouncing ideas around and talking about what other options we might have. He just got angry and started questioning me like I had done something wrong. He was angry with the teachers for not picking up on this sooner and at the counselor for making the suggestion to have her tested. Most of all he was angry about the $2,200. So we are arguing.
Last night at my daughters Volleyball game they played 5 matches (they have to win 3). My daughter loves Volleyball and she really has a good relationship with the girls on the team. I sent a note via e-mail to her coach thanking her for taking the time to be the coach and told her how much I thought Alexis was growing both personally and academically. Her response was as follows: “Thank you for your kind words. I’m so glad that volleyball has been a positive in her life. Allie has been nothing but an inspiration to our team. She is probably the most team-oriented person on our team and really pulls the troops together. She’s always cheering everyone on. I (and the team) feel very fortunate to have her on our team…she’s been great!! “
There are 12 girls on the team. They don’t always get to play, I understand that. I have gone to many of the games and I watch the same six girls on the court for most of the game, and I understand that too. The coach wants to win. My daughter may not be the best player on the team but she isn’t the worst either. She doesn’t get to play all that often. Last night the team played all 5 matches and they were all close games. My daughter was the only one on the team that did not get in to play at all. As soon as the game was over she was the first one off the bench to clean up and put away the net and other equipment she never stopped cheering her teammates on and was a very good sport. The coach approached her after the game while she was taking down the net and tried to talk to her. I saw that Allie wasn’t in the mood for talking as she just kept working, the coach put her hand on Allie’s shoulder and Allie shrugged her off. Then she sort of slowly backer her into a corner and talked to her. Allie didn’t have much to say but I could tell that she was talking a little bit. After their talk Allie walked over and picked up her bag and left the gym. I followed. As soon as she was out of the gym and in the parking lot she began to cry. The coach had apologized for not putting her in the game, she said she was going to put her in the fourth match but she didn’t want to mess up the “Mesh” of the other girls. Many of the other girls had missed practice and were out of school sick the day before the game and it was always an unwritten rule that if you miss practice you can’t play. They all played. I was crushed for her. I actually felt her pain.
I asked her last night if she would be going to practice today and she said “yes, I am going to every practice and every game. I will be there for my team and my friends, but I have no respect for coach.” I will tell you that I might not have gone back if it were me and I am soooo proud of her for going back and not quitting. But my heart still aches.
Things are still not good with hubby and I am trying to make things better. I decided to go back on my anti depressants and anti anxiety meds. Maybe that will help.
The last time I heard from my son he had the possibility of a job offer at the animal hospital but I haven’t heard from him since so I’m not sure where that stands.
My oldest daughter and her family are coming for the weekend, we have lots planned. I hope that my husband and I can be over this tiff before they arrive and we can have a good weekend.
On Sunday all of my family will get together at my parents house for dinner. My parents leave for Florida next week and they will be gone until April. So it’s sort of our family Thanksgiving.
We also have a celebration to attend earlier in the afternoon on Sunday at friends. Their two children (adopted) are going to be baptized; my daughter and son in law are God Parents. This is along awaited event. One of the children is a 16 month old little boy whose parent was fighting for custody. She was found to be unfit and her rights were terminated. The baby has been with his adoptive parents for all of the 16 months and it would have been devastating for all of them if he had been taken away.
I hope my medication starts to work quickly. I am feeling so yucky and always on the verge of tears. I guess I wasn’t ready to stop taking them. Maybe I never will be.
2 comments:
Hi Lynn,
Sorry it has taken me so long to comment, been working to much I'm afraid. Hope things are going better for you and glad your back on the anti depressants. I have been on them myself the last 4 years and has made all the difference in my life.
Oh, and the tooth is finally infection free so glad to have that done and over with.
Hang in there my friend!!
Hi, just checking up on you and hoping life is getting better for you.
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