I have been over weight for as long as I can remember. When I was young my mom made all of my clothes (or most of them). I distinctly remember going shopping for my first pair of real “jeans” when I was in Jr High. I look back at pictures of myself then and I was over weight, not obese, but I sure remember feeling like I was huge.It’s kind of funny, I think that one of the reasons it was so easy for me to gain this weight is for the longest time I haven’t really felt or seen myself all that huge. I know that I can’t fit in the seat; I know that my clothes are size 26 and 28, and I know what I weigh. The thing is, when I look in the mirror I don’t see a big fat person, I see a pretty good looking woman even when I am fresh out of the shower. I see curves, nice breasts, and all in all I like the way my body looks. My body has done me well over the past 46 years; I’ve had 4 children and nursed all of them for a time. Everything works; I have no problems with knees, wrists, eyes or even my back. I have no reason to “hate” or be “grossed out” or be “repulsed” by my body.
Maybe if those things were true though I wouldn’t have let myself get so heavy and out of shape. After weight loss surgery some people have issues with still seeing themselves as fat when they look in the mirror. They still live in a fat brain and it takes some time to get used to being something other than obese. I have to wonder what it will be like for me.
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This will open a whole new wonderful world and you are going to love it. I have battled with weight my whole life also. The highest I ever got was around 230, but I never stepped on the scale to prove it. About 4 years ago, I was totally stress out because my 98yr old father was sick and I had to sell his house ASAP to pay for his nursing home bills.
This house had not been updated, nor cleaned out in 50 yrs. I was working full time, trying to empty the house out and sell it in a 2 week period. I dropped my weight down to 135 and people thought I was sick, but I have to admit, it felt GREAT!! Dad did pass away, house got cleaned out and sold, less stress and I'm back up to 183lbs.
For me, it's just a matter of getting out there and excerise, but that motivation is hard to capture.
I work at a hospital, and have seen many gastric bypass patients come through. It is life style change indeed, but a wonderful lifestyle to follow. Your going to do great!!!
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